It’s in the way you sell every word and phrase And leaving me to know how much the meaning weighs.

Qoute Aisyah:
"He's such an ass."

Heh. I went out swimming late afternoon with her. It's better this time round that the previous because we didn't get ourselves bathing under the hot sun. And the water's warm by the time we changed to our suits.

The only disadvantage is that there's alot of swimming coaches with their students - unlike when we got the whole pool to ourselves in the morning 'till noon. After the swim, we went to get our dinner and left the place by 10.30pm.

And we agreed to swim again next week. Yay!
Grats to her getting a job at a special school.
=]

We shall exercise and catch up again, babe. Wee~!

Umrah '08.
I'm back home.

Dire.

"I've been running away. Yes... I have been.
And it's going to be a long way back.

Or should I start from where my feet are standing right now?"

It has been a long time since I've been blogging (with words). And I'm totally a NEET currently (Not in Employment, Education or Training). Way too much time. And here I am blogging this late.
It feels like I'm running away from blogging as well. Keeping people updated over me rotting away at home just doesn't quite cut it, does it? I wondered if my ex-students ever figured any part of me up already by now.

Can't even keep up with writing until I got My All Time Favourite This Love by Craig Armstrong replaying and my coffee (At this time?!).



I guess this entry would be long, if I still have the heart to continue.


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I had decided that I would stop teaching. To many, it's a shock. But it's a decision that I have to make. First of all the statements I'll make - I never left because of the kids. It is more in depth to me, I think. I can live with the environment given but never with the respect shown. Couldn't write anything more than that - I have to protect everything I've got. If there's any in the first place.

For the past 2 years, inclusive of my repeat year, I lost so much confidence in myself. I wrote on my MSN last month that (why do I feel uneasy when I'm happy?). I thought I wasn't serious about it - but it hasn't left me until today.

During these times, I've yearned to do something that makes me feel like how I used to - Always on ground, walking steadily. These days all I have been is tripping and falling down.

Of course, there's a lot of times I've been thinking about giving up.
And after I stopped teaching, I don't even have the energy to think of that.
I just want to start feeling like I'm back at my own feet, ready to walk again.

I've been searching and as much as it is. I guess this is my next step.
I'd be visiting/going overseas on the 13th July 2008 - 21st July 2008.

At Mecca's well known places - Masjidil Haram

Maybe my dear friends have heard of it but knew little of it. I think you'd know Saudi better.

A beautiful view of Medina's Masjid Nabawi.

I'll be going there do perform Umrah. It's just a direct translation of visiting. It's also a mini-pilgrimage of Haji, so to speak. The wiki's link is there - if you're curious to read more.

I'm excited and nervous all at the same time, so to speak. And I really want this to be very fulfilling. It's happening on my 21st. It's there when I've been looking. There are so many signs leading me there. It's a chance.




To be continued...

Frustration.

This is my expensive set of tools.

And please compare it with my cheaper set of tools (from Daiso)


This proves the theory that not everything expensive is as good as something cheap.


My box of jewelery making *hearts*