If my words could hold you in my arms
If my words could give you warmth
If my words could share your loneliness
If my words could tell you so much and made u feel so much

Then let my words be your companion for the time being
I cant be physically there even if i wished to
Times like these will make me wonder why i couldnt warp myself there
My heart knows what i want very much

REIRA starring Yuna Ito - Truth

Let me stay with you
Kizutsuke au no ni
Naze konna ni motomete shimau no
Dont you know my heart ?
Sunao ni narezu ni ita no
Tada hitotsu no ai ga hoshii no ni

Meguriaeta kiseki wo shinjite
Kanadete yukitai anata e no melody
Moshi mo subete wo nakushite shimatte mo
Kono omoi wa eien na no
Its my truth

Believe in yourself
Tsumazuita toki mo
Aruitekita namida wo nugutte
Open up your heart, omoide no saki ni kitto
Ashita to iu kibou ga aru kara

Give me your loneliness
And Ill give you my tenderness
Wasurenai de ite ano hi mita yume wa
Hanareteite mo kono mune ni itsudemo
Kanjite iru anata dake wo
Its my truth

Tsunagaru hoshi ga sasayaki kakeru
Tomadou kokoro wo te ga shinagara
Deai to wakere hito wa sagasu no
Itsuka musubi aeru tsuyoi kizuna wa

Sekaijuu no kanashimi mo subete
Uketomete mo ii anata no tamenara
Sekaijuu kara okizari ni sarete mo
Sono hitomi wo shinjite iru
Its my truth

Translation

Let me stay with you even if it hurts both of us
Why must I always demand so much
Dont you know my heart could never stay put
Theres simply only one love I want

Believing in miracles we can come across
I go on playing a melody for you
Even if I end up losing everything
This feeling is forever, Its my truth

Believe in yourself even when you stumble
Wipe your tears as you walk on
Open up your heart beyond the memories, surely
There is a hope we call tomorrow

Give me your loneliness
and Ill give you my tenderness
Dont forget the dream we saw that day
Even if were separated, in this heart
I will feel you forever, Its my truth

Your whisper reaches the scattered stars
Illuminating my confused heart
In every encounter and farewell, what people search for is
This strong bond that will unite them someday

All the sadness throughout the world
If its for you, I can take it all in
Even if the whole world deserts me
I believe in those eyes, Its my truth

Various Thoughts...

Q: If you touch me, you will die, and you can only live without me. I am a big part of your life, and will eventually be the only thing left. You will learn to embrace me finally and rest. What am I?
A: Death.

Notice: Piala Khatulistiwa 2006 need helpers! Event held on the 26 Dec 2006.
- Sorry cant go; It's my brothers birthday. =/ But i really wanna go! T_T

The Alkaloid(Alkaloid, if you repeatedly clicked on it, the link is going to play hide and seek with you =p) Compounds are killing me with their explanation in Wikipedia. I think I'd rather go and find research papers in the lab instead.

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (Rule no. 5)

Arrgghh - ack... Sore throat =(

Oh well, anyway, its been a while since i last post a uselessful follow up for this topic. Hiak hiak~ Alaa, i dont really have an idea of what to write actually, but then again, you people can just throw me a topic n let me rant... Hee hee =D

Ok... So, its been a while since ive been peacefully having peace hearing someone pouring themselves out at me until yesterday, so... I think i can actually make do with the baseline of the whole problem into an advice! (pro hor? hor? you better bow to me! For i am teh Princess Sal! =x)

RULE NO. 5 - Do Not Play With The Other Party's Feelings!

I mean it lah! Don't lead them on, especially if they are the one who have feelings for you and you hell well are not feeling the same way too. Why?

Karma & Retribution lah! What goes around comes around. =D

Okay i give a better reason. People make mistakes, and people do things that tend to hurt other peoples feelings. But, i dont think its humane that you should be hurting a person unnecessarily when you already decided on what you intend to do or feel; instead, you keep that person hopeful and looking dumb all over you.

Let the chick stick around cos shes pretty but youre eyeing another bitch is not a good reason to fool around, man. Its bullshiet. Seriously. Try putting yourself in that persons shoes. Unless you dont mind being the dumb but hot looking ass lah~

You never know if they are seriously very ambitious with their feelings, if they are, youre gonna hurt them real bad if you try to keep up n keep them throwing logs into the burning fire.
Hell hath no fury like a Woman Scorned. (applies to both sides la)
Dont be so sure they will be forgiving if you ever fool them yah?

Eh, hope this rule is more obvious in the Topic itself. =]
Cheerios!

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I know i still got tons of things to write about! Haha.

Sealed with a... =D

Haha... I actually got tons of things to write about but im feeling so weak now i only can remember a few things instead of the whole lot that i wrote in my organiser today. My organizer still reminds me of a cow somehow... but since when are cows polka-dotted? =x

It takes 2 muscles for a peck, 146 muscles to kiss...
And its a workout if you are making out!
Ok now now, Healthy Lifestyle! =P

Read! =D http://www.telegraph.co.uk/connected/main.jhtml?view=DETAILS&grid=&xml=/connected/2006/10/17/dlkiss17.xml

Just for your knowledge =)

A worrying issue - mind +body+q+a (Singapore Shape Dec 2006 magazine, pg 60)

Q: The end of the year is a stressful time for me and i worry and stress a lot over my commitments. What is the difference between normal worrying and an anxiety disorder?

A: "Anxiety and worry are normal emotions", says Dr Adrian Wang, a consultant psychiatrist at Gleneagles Medical Centre. "However, if your worry greatly exceeds the demands of the situation, or if you are worrying so often that it starts to affect your ability to function at work or at home, then you may have an anxiety disorder."
"Anxiety disorders are a large group of illnesses, which include Panic Disorder, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Worry is the only one of the symptoms of these disorders. Some of these disorders have physical symptoms - like breathlessness, shivering, tension headaches and gastric discomfort brought on by excessive anxiety and worry", he says.

[Credits stated as above]

I AM THE PRINCESS *self proclaims with certificate-stamped*

DRAFT! muahahaha with all the good points taken note of, cos stupid blogger did some magic tricks that failed on my entry! curse you blogger! grr *bites* =x

. Before midnight already i got birthday wish from sis abbie
. First pressie from Bro Kel! wee~
. Got misunderstanding, but thats all settled.
. Dress but still half of my clothes in black (yes i know i know black lagi =/)
. Went to work n i hardly have anything to do!
. By lunch, my handphones battery is already half dead (inbox full non stop!)
. I got an overseas call that lasted me around 18~19mins (shooo happy; thats a pressie already! *muacks*)
. Rotted more at work before going off
. Waited for mervyn at the MRT station for an hour before he ps-ed me! *grr*
. Took the train to bedok station alone
. Met marc, shuzhi, jiamin first
. Met kt & cass, bobby, calven, jinwei, mervyn, karen
. Saw cass holding her bouquet of roses from kt, should be 16 stalks if i didnt count wrongly (wheres mine?! =x)
. Took cab to east coast *3 cabs total*
. Bobby chop-ed 3 tables! PRO hor! 1 person chop-ed 3 tables
. He even bought birthday cake! Chocolate with cream! SO sweet!
. They sang birthday song TWICE. so malu u noe! i think i turned red >.<
. Took me a long time to decide on wad to wish for *coughs*
. Sat at the table with marc, jinwei, jiamin and shuzhi
. Ate mee hongkong, Satay (thanks for the satay treat karen! <3)
. Marc gave me 2 PPC as pressie! ty~ ^^
. Bullied jinwei to eat stingray, rice, satay! *he thought i bullied him to eat onions lol*
. Bullied calven to eat strawberries! *hes 17 but its his first time - thats ur pressie for me ^^*
. Chatted up till 11pm
. Walked to macdonalds for 1 hour!
. KENA midnight CAB .___. ^$30^ fly fly edi.
. Came back home around 1am edi.
. Mom n Dad still EATING n watching tv <.<
. Bathed like theres no tomorrow =x
. Charged phone - Super Spammed! Mom gave Dads battery.
. Switched on lappy and waiting till i fell asleep -.-

My best birthday =] you guys are so sweet. everything u guys do for my 24 hours is a present to me already. i *heart* you all. Thank you for the SMSes! Thank You for the smiles! Thank you for the time spent! Thank you for everything! i really appreciate it.

I love my birthday that i wished i could continue being a princess! *coughs hard* Can i? =P

haha thank you JM

Thankies, though i know u got my age wrongly! ^^

It was supposed to be a good night*

Today, i went to work with neither things to do nor things to rot with. So, i was so bored that i just took a chance and ask bobby out for dinner. which he agreed to if only hes not meeting his gf. fair enuff. i wont mind la, couple couple let them enjoy arr right? =]

but then his gf was busy so he agreed to meet me. met at city hall interchange, and i have yet to decide where to eat. We walked n walked and he suggested seoul garden. I was craving for sushi so i agreed la! anyway i got the money to buy...

then when i wanted to pay for the meal, bobby rejected n said he pay first. oh ok, later i pay, i agreed. then i scold him hao lian cos he paid by credit. =x haha.

then we eat eat eat! im so suprised wadever we took can actually be walloped =x haha
and when we finished, he inclined to take my money. with the excuse: my birthday treat.

grr! but thank you bobby =]

met kak fad when i was on the way home. she took like 30 full seconds to recognise me or something. for god knows why, i wouldnt know =] but yeah

only to come back home with bobby dropping me a bomb - he got hacked.
TO that hacker, wadever comes around goes around. i believe that. if you may laugh n laugh, truth, u will get it.

God made the world that way.

*Installed antivirus, antispyware n deleted one firewall instead of having two. my laptop is clean anyway.

Tremble...

There are times when i think im just good for nothing.
Those are the times that i start to shed my tears needlessly.
My heart is far too fragile to handle information.
Everything has to be shed in tears.

Joy, Suffering, Pain, Anguish, Fear.

Sometimes i just wish people can read minds.
For that matter, the one whos being read has a choice of choosing the people who they want to share their inner thoughts with...
But then again, thats all done by using communication.
So, whats the point? Why am i complaining and ranting?

When my heartstrings are being pulled, tugged and taunted,
Did anyone felt it?
How much can 'Something is wrong...' and 'Is everything alright?' mean?
I have absolutely no idea.

Let me just stare into space.
And press the pause button to the story called 'Life.'

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (Rule no. 4)

A friend once told me something and all i can decide upon to summarise it is as qouted:

If you are fond (like, love or crazy about him/her) of someone, and it doesnt matter how unreal things can become if you are to be in a relationship with that someone, just tell him/her how you feel. If that person cares and feels the same way, both of you will eventually work things out together.

Its mutual respect and understanding + a lot of communication when it comes to indulging relationships. Tell him/her how much you care. Be frank if you do miss that someone. and dont fool them.

I love this one. *kisses*

Tiger Lily - Matchbook Romance

We drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
The time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
Its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.

And if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
And never let go.
I'll never let go.
As we round the corner to your house,
you turned to me and said,
"I'll be going through withdrawal of you,
for this one night we have spent."
And, i want to speak these words...
But i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
And accept "someday, somehow"
As the words that we'll hang from.

And i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cos i, i don't want to make things any worse.
And i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cos i, i don't want to make things any worse.

Why does tonight, have to end?
Why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts?
We'll skip the goodbyes.
If i had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
Just you and i.

And i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cos i, i don't want to make things any worse.
And i, i don't want to speak these words
'cos i, i don't want to make things
And i, i don't want to make things any worse

For my own reference =]

Crappy... i think i missed sewing so much that i even looked up on it at work...I love this website alot, though its for kids. http://www.everythingsewing.net/index.htm

Next... Distance Education. I'm looking forward to see which schools are attractive for distance learning... might as well try than rotting yeah? Hmm... Under John Hopkin's Department of Mental Health =x
http://www.jhsph.edu/dept/mh/distance_education/

Ohhhh... Need stuffs for BBQ? Look no further cos there is...
http://www.bbqwholesale.com/index.html

- i totally forgot the other link i wanna remind myself with -

oh well =D

>.<

Question: What do you do when you went down to the lobby from work during lunch hour, thinking of buying a bottle of green tea and you met your friends who are attached at the same place waiting for each other to go for lunch at Holland Market?

Answer: Nothing, because you will be dragged by your friends up to the bus and end up having lunch with them instead.

Yeah. They really dragged me up the bus and i had lunch with them. Nothing to be angry about but my mind was thinking about the workstation i logged myself into. >.< i made 2 guys talk to themselves while i was away =x

<3 all my friends. Muacks.

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (Rule no. 3)

Rule no. 3 - Dont use the HANDPHONE/MP3 unneccessarily during a date.

Its a turnoff seriously. Unless youre can do 6 things at 1 time, i.e...
1. talk to the person/people ure meeting,
2. listen to the mp3 and hearing his/her/their conversation(s)
3. (+ understanding what the hell he/she/they is/are talking about)
4. reply to some friends u are sms-ing over the phone
5. smile and give eye contact
6. and not diss your friends/date.

If not, Learn Your Dating Etiquette. (even with your friends.)
Thank You.

Oh yeah, For the previous rule, if the girl is already leeching you, and youre still being so nice about it, Talk to her, for gods sakes. Ok, maybe this is easier than done, but lets try doing a scenario.
o. Ask her will only things bought for her the only way to make her love you? Then she only loves you for your money. (dangerous? okay... i give another subtle example)
o. Tell her, 'Baby, since you demand for something expensive, mind you buying me a (put something damn expensive here)?'
o. Or just let her leech you and both of you dont get married. Hmm... nice ending here *sacarsm detected*
Go figure.

Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance

Well I was there on the day, they sold the cause for the queen
And when the lights all went out, we watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself but it...
Started with an alright scene

It was the roar of the crowd, that gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled, and said you won't feel a thing
And as we ran from the cops,
We laughed so hard it would sting

If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter after I'm gone
Because you'll never learn a goddamned thing

It's just a sad song, with nothing to say
About a life-long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

I spent my highschool career, spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heros, sell a car on TV
Bring out the old guillotine,
We'll show them what we all mean

If I'm so wrong,
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter long after I'm gone
Because you never learn a goddamned thing

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

So go, Go away
Just go, Run away
But where did
you run to?
Where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price, you pay

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait
for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant
nothing to you
C'mon

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
At all

Updated. For the Week =]

theres so much for me to blog abt this week so i shall blog it tonight. i
pray =x
-tuesday outing
-thursday mia session
-friday slacking
session =p

Tuesday Outing at Causeway Point =]

Karen, Shu Zhi, Calven, Jin Wei and Me, watched DOA. I made fun at both of them lmao. But oh well, they will never speak. OH - Dont worry Boon after your O lvls we will ask you out this time round okokok? promise ^^v. to all the Olvl students especially. Im so going to haunt u didi hw =x

Thursday MIA session

I lost my dodo PHONE. oh not really, i left it at my workplace, in my labcoat. SUPER HORROR. who knows, SOME important call? NOT TO MENTION my PHONE GOT STUPID DEAD PIXELS. crap. I need a new phone.

Friday Slacking Session?

Nothing to do... Almost... my hp is like flat, and gongkers as usual, and another line of pixels dead. Really, its like doing some dumb countdown on its own... Crap. Really crap. Oh yeah, PEOPLE seriously like to test my patience... i had enough but i will just await for retribution instead. =]

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (Rule no. 2)

Rule no. 2 - Girls, especially if you are attached, dont freaking leech the guys.

Once in a while leeching off his wallet is fine. But not all the time.
Come on pretty ladies, i know you will dig for branded goods, pretty clothes, long vacation, and everything, but dont be so demanding. It kills you. Being materialistic with the guy you love, is not a good sign.

You might scare him. He might think of this two ideas:
1. You love him just because he got money around his belly 24/7...
2. As a result, he might lose you if hes broke and unemployed.
3. He get stressed, trying to figure out what other materialistic things that will make you smile for your next months anniversary. or maybe, you only say i love you to him when you receive something from him.

Ok, thats not 2 ideas. But seriously, to me, going out with him will be a blessing already. Seeing him smile would be a good gift for me. Well, yeah, maybe for birthdays and yearly anniversaries, buying something expensive would be nice, but of course, an eye for an eye. You cannot argue with your boyfriend because he didnt buy you anything for this month when he already bought you 1000 bucks worth of diamond studded necklace.

I wouldnt, Id rather leech off him after im married (to him), i mean, by then, we would be trying to put a certain amount in a shared account and spending stuff for our home, for our kids, for our holidays together. To me, that will be a nice thing and a nice responsibility together. Easy to say ya? We are just creatures of habits, we do need to be reminded.

So, we girls also need to be responsible on a date. Why dont we offer to pay for ourselves at least, and if you think your guy is too egoistic or insists on paying... then order the food for him instead, and give the change thats just for his meal. He might not notice it if its a big note or something, but do insist if you can. Or before you set out on a date tonight, say that the bills on you. Dont always pressurise him with the responsibility he already have by supporting you. Share it with him. =)

Yeah, when i was working in a restaurant, this sweet couple pushed the bill to me, and asked me to accept the money from their hands. The lady insists to pay for the meal, but the guy keep saying that he wont be gentleman if he doesnt do so. I was pretty confused on which hand i should receive the bill from, but, i ended up saying, Sir, if thats okay with you, you can pay for her next meal instead. Ladies first! (lame joke and i smiled.) He said to the lady, 'oh, okay, the next one is on me, that you need to promise.' Which she did. pretty sensible right?

So... if hes the Right Guy for you, heed this bcos, i dont think you wanna get married any later... You might be leeching off the money hes saving up for your marriage.

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (in my POV)

I recently spoke to a good friend of mine and we were talking about our current situations of having such a dry dry pocket without any good ol' mooooneeeeyyy...
- No money, cant go out.
- Got money, sure will spend on food and transport.
- Got money, sure want to buy new clothes and necessities.
- Got part time work but still not enough to save up.
- No guts to do any 4D or soccer betting *whoops*

Oookay, you get the gist. Money is the root of all evil (sometimes they taste heavenly though.) You get a smexy car, and all the girls(though they might only dig for your car) dig you. You wear all the latest stuffs and gadgets, and people will wanna talk to you thinking that you are hot latest news. Stuff like that. You wont really mind being THAT poor and ditching all this heavenly sins unless...
-You ARE SOOO ATTACHED. *gasps*
-You seriously wanna ask this hot chick out. and she agreed to accompany you!
(okay, you know im exaggerating but what the heck)

So we were like, hey, how the hell would people like us survive on dates, at least the decent ones...? Now, i shall bring forth my trusty handy dandy notebook on Dos and Donts when you are going out for a oooh la la date.

Rule No. 1 - The Guy Pays for the First Date. Compulsory.
Why?
Guys, if you never do this, either you are just very stupidly stingy or you just dropped ur waterface lah (meaning, you either got no pride nor ur ego is stupidly doing some hidden tiger crap). Come on, maybe its just a thing, but its courtesy that when you ask a girl out you should foot for the first bill. Who knows, she wasnt that 100% interested to come and might not even want to eat at that MacDonalds restaurant. Tempt her with free food, movie, ice cream and let her choose for most of the stuff but please do think twice when a girl ask you to eat at some super expensive high class restaurant that has one scoop of icecream costing around 15 bucks or something. This girl might just seriously using you as a automatic debit card.
(Im not sure about how you are gonna tempt the other girls but you can tempt me with that =x If only you managed to get my no. that is =P)

For the girls,
Dont act tough for the first date. Dont act macho ok? Cos guys will have this stuuuupid blooody ego that they wont let us touch it unless they are ghey or something. They need to remind their own brains that they need to show that they are a person that is dependable and stuff. So just be demure and sweet and all that for the 1st date and everything will turn out OK. If they dont wish to pay for you for the first date, throw some food in his face and call him cheap. you will just know that he aint doing enough for ya (except for weird & unexpected circumstances - eg. during the date he seriously lost his wallet or he got robbed along with your handbag or something).

To be continued...