I'm jumping wagons and I'm running around.

when emotions kicks in.
It's CRAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZY!





Haha. There are times that i feel there's a need to blog, but at the same time, there's some point in my life right now, that I would only like to keep to myself. i'm happy now, despite the rocky, chapped and bumps in the road i'm travelling right now.

Abdul Mateen refusing to take a picture and instead showed me the game he is playing on his umi's phone

i can clearly plan things out now. and i'm taking the wheel. thankgod, i'm blessed to be able to think wisely and drop any sick bad feelings there could ever exist. even when i can't see the road ahead due to the fog which will always exude out of the environment, be it people, or others, i shall take it in stride. insya'allah.





This year, hopefully, with His blessings, I shall take up things that are beneficial for myself. There's alot that I wish to do, and I wish to enjoy. This is the age, let me presume, to take charge. I want a future where I can look back and remember alot of smiles. =]




@ Mad Jack's on 23rd January 2009 - with Along and family :]

God-willing.

Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down.

Some people have realised that I don't use Multiply as my main source of outlet. I'm still clinging onto blogspot.com, since it's way convenient and faster.

I haven't named my lappie yet, but somehow I wonder if the lappie has a software problem. It has something to do with the touchpad, where there would be errors with the sliding up n down area. And my hands are actually not that good with touchscreens. I have a touchscreen to adjust the volume and player.

I have had my heart broken, and I know how it feels like to break down.
And somehow, people don't realise that I'm feeling very agitated right now.


I have my hands full with work, plus I'm just on my 2nd week. Information overload, literally. New colleagues, and unnamed children. Thank myself for having a good memory last week to be able to remember 22 names in 2 days. But now, I have another 24 to remember. I love my job, as much as it is, as much as anyone who doubts it, because I'm all for the children. That's my cause. The responsibilities that comes with it, is definitely something I have to accept and deal with.





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If you're calling me selfish about the whole idea of running away from something, let me tell you beforehand how many chances I actually gave you. I'm doing this on purpose, and this time I'm serious about it. Since you won't take my words and heed it, I couldn't help but show you I mean business. Before everyone starts pointing fingers at me, may I inform the citizens that I have not spoken my problems with this person to the whole wide world because I believe that if there's a problem, we jump down to solve it straightaway, and not involve any parties.

This time round, you involved my parents, my family. Let me admit, that is too much. You have no inkling and proof of the ties that was biasly tied by one and yet you treated them like you have a right to do so. I'm disappointed. Very disappointed.

If I ever spoke a word about the things that you have tried making me do, I'm very sure that my whole family would be against you. And your family would feel the same way too. That's the reason why I would never admit that you are someone after all.

I'm grappling my life over here, and you spoke sweet words to them but with me? You're harsh, forceful and biased. I'm sorry, if this is an indication of life in the future, it's not what I want. Because I believe that you would never thought about how i feel, but you thought about how i think i would feel, even after countlessly telling you the real deal.

Live a life, and not be forced to lie. I'm just avoiding the truth, but this time, it's as close as reality for you.


... And you'd probably won't be reading this because you're just that kind of person, huh? :]

Harsh, ain't it?

All in 2009.

Nur Naimah Binte Razali
Arrived into this world on the 10th January 2009, 1658hrs.



Acer Aspire 4935G
Arrived to be my companion on the 10th of January 2009, 1530hrs.
Still unnamed, though, cos I've used Michael for my lovely earphones.


Teacher's Preparatory Programme
Back to school learning necessity theories on the 2nd and 5th January 2009, from 0830 - 1800hrs.



My all time favourite Starbucks' Mocha Frappe
Always there for my pleasure on the 5th and 9th January 2009



Temporarily called as my kids
My another set of first 'When School is Work' day on the 6th January 2009.

Wallflowers - One Headlight
Bringing Down the Horse (1996)

One Headlight - Walflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge


Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me