Materialistic Greed Needs =x

Lookie! - Philips In-ear headphones

[Source:http://www.consumer.philips.com/consumer/catalog/product.jsp?language=en&country=SG&catalogType=CONSUMER&productId=SHE2610_97_SG_CONSUMER]

I bought it at $23.50. Even though its expensive, im pretty satisfied with the sound quality =D


Next - HP psc 1350 all in one printer

[Source: http://h40054.www4.hp.com/pressrel/images/PSC-1350-SITU1_kl.gif]

I bought its tri-color ink at a cost of $56.00++

More to come =D hehe.

The Do`s and Dont`s when you are going out on a date (Rule no. 5.1)

Jealousy - Just make sure you put yourself in ur partner's shoes and think it in their view. Its a very confusing, and delicate thing. yet, everyone will feel it one way or another, for certain. Dont u find that interesting? In my scientific brain, it does. But in my normal life, being jealous is something i dont like to feed myself with. or would anyone else, for that matter. ;p

A friend once told me, the guideline(ie. advice) is there, but to approach it is to know a persons character. (i think this is totally irrelevant from the first paragraph =x)

Oh yeah, dont forget... Not everyone is talented. You arent telepathic. Nor is he/she. Go figure. (this one too)

Note: Like i said, my advices arent foolproof. I just do this with my own propably biased opinion. I only live in this world for 19 years... and i have yet to learn decades of information, and mistakes.

Haha, well... i am human, and i bound to make mistakes and learn from them. Just be sure that you dont wholely swallow everything that might be an advice. there are always different approaches to solving a problem.

p/s: I think i made this entry on impulse. I havent slept the whole night, doing my report. My school break is seriously not a school break. and im envious that brother bought a basket full of chocolates for his future fiance. but i rearranged it! hehe.

the joy of being a sister.

Darth Vader vs. Japanese Police

Darth Vader vs. Japanese Police

Pawned!
Enjoy People =]

My heart is a Maze...

Is it a good thing if i actually archived every single thoughts in one blog by itself? because if i did there will be hundreds of entries instead. i could relive it anytime i wanted to.

But i dont wish to relive the life that i had ever since i started my polytechnic years. edging towards the adulthood but yet stumbling upon adolescence. its a killer. i started to think...

When will i really grow up?

When will i admit to myself that I am actually an adult?




Look at what i wrote early last year... or was it two years ago? i was reading my previous blog, unknown to many... :

You. You out there. Yes YOU. / I hate you. Hate you saying my words. / Hate you following my phrases. / Hate to listen the phrase coming out from your mouth. / It's my phrase, my ideas. / Those words just kept repeating in my head, / with you awful voice stuck with it, like an echo. / Leave me alone, YOU should. Don't get reminded by me. / Stop bothering me. You made my life a horrible mess. / Look at who needs to clean it up in the end... / YOU. that certain YOU out there. / Dont think everything is normal. You're so wrong. / Dont act as if you know me well. You're so wrong. / Dont act as if you're the victim. You're so wrong. / Just get out of my sight. Out of my way. / It's sickening enough that you're once a part in my life. / Buzz off i dun care. Finally... /YOU YOURSELF MADE ME HATE YOU.

Oh god. I didnt realise i have a secret but lost dwelling in me. The place is called Hatred. Maybe it can also be categorised as Despair. Only God knows what i was going through then.

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And i Have to admit... i am addicted to caffeine.


i have this imagery in my mind; im hanging onto two ropes, one on each hand. one rope is my past and the other is my future. my past is attached to me like im a criminal accused, while my future is linked in chains, bound to break if im not careful enough.
and below me is this endless void called,
depression.

can i commit the worst sin of all to myself? u noe the part where u know that youre going to end this years of hardship?
im struggling to fight these demons. my own.
just that this time, the demon is me. myself. my desires. my thoughts. Its all about me.

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku semangat untuk melalui segala rintangan yang sudah berlaku dan akan berlaku. Kerana Engkau lah Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang. Maha Pengampun.

lifes like that - in point form

okok lets just write all the junks i can remember in point form... =x

reason being that my lappies keyboard really gg-ed and im using external keyboard now... also, my external keyboard is the pmser kind. the key i will sure pop out of nowhere sometimes. when i was playing maple, since my inventory was on the letter i, it keep popping the inventory window nonstop. -.-

today~
-i slept for like i think 10 to 11 hours today
-went for lecture for just 2 hours
-went to look for w800i but all i can find is offers for w810i
-NEED to email toshiba about my bloody keyboard
-and i bet they will WANT TO GET my bloody money for it to be repaired
-might as well scold them and say I WANT A NEW HARD DRIVE =x
-need to email my Liason Officer regarding his naughty behaviour of asking for our
-reports earlier by ONE week and GIVING such a LATEEEEEEE notice!
-still getting used to my external keyboard but now i can type without looking at it
-sometimes. sometimes but not OFTEN.
-missed someone BADLY
-mom bought chocolates and mee hongkong~! yumm
-thought too much and had some uneasy feeling.
-dunno wad else to write for today

yesterday~
-SCHOOL at 10! the horror >.<
-met up with the girls at 3pm =] i really really miss them so much *sobs*
-went back home with peihua n eli
-ey i almost cried in the bus la talking to peihua - such sad life T_T
-windowshopped and bought myself COLOUR PENCILS! weee i feel young all of a sudden
-but suddenly felt so sad that we are turning 20 next year
-met my parents for dinner
-looked at phones =]
-came back late - 10plus
-talked for abit n thought of napping
-instead i SLEPT

the horror
u wont know my sad life =x in my last year of getting my diploma
hmmm... thats a story for another day =x

leave me alone.

sometimes i think of suicidal.
whenever people around me arent feeling happy.
even if its to me or if the feeling is to they themselves.

i dont like it.
i dont like it when someone raises their voice.
but sometimes i wonder why do i do the same.
to instil fear? or did i learn too many wrong things...

im really tired.
tired of hearing things like these.
and i want to talk to someone.
but... how the hell am i supposed to talk about it?

maybe thats why people leave gaps between themselves and me.
its ok. i understand. its better than lying to urself.
because i will know when someone is keeping things, lying to me.
or mocking me.

or is it just me thinking too much.
but i stopped making too much doubts for quite some time already.

after all, when i think about it too much,
maybe no one will ever love me,
like the way i think love should be.
or, the way i love something or someone.

i have been trying to be strong.
and im too afraid to falter.
but i fear too much now.

im scared. im really really scared.

call me whatever you want.
right now im just feeling too fragile.

and if ure intending to mock me,
by all means - do so.
who knows, maybe i...

i better not say it.

I going to go gila la soon, can? puhleeeessseee =(

Yesterday morning i was whining to kel that i am lazy to go to work and i might be pmsing the whole day. i was so so so right...

i met someone i unlikely would have ever wished to see after two (please fill in your own adjective here) years...

whatever my reaction was, it was involuntary. like... my body, my hands, my face, everything lah, just acted out on its own. if you find it offending - ive already given my reason. it ignored you.

after that, my day feels a bit pinched out of nowhere.

i had nothing to do so up to 3pm i was rotting in front of the computer. i chatted to dozens... well ok not dozens.. a bunch of them (discreetly =x) i settled my genotyping files and accumulate them accordingly by date. abel dont believe im in kooks. nic went omfg. styne is my alibi =x but nemind abt that. IM NOT new in KOOKS hor! IM teh poster girl >.< unless belbel kicked me n used vixen to be tehhhh poster girl this time.

LONG TIME NEVER CHAT WITH YOU AR STYNE! (do you noe it sounds weird to pronounce that when i realised your full name is justyne <.<) alah, the hype now is me planning like mad to get my fine ass to melacca during my feb - apr holidays. but id go KL first! *sticks out tongue* kel kel! hmm... chun too! muahahhaha.

trust me. my parents will gg. culture shock. open mouth big big. one eyebrow up kinda reaction. pleaaaaseee be good in front of my parents. please my daddy more >.< er... my mommy can be pleased easily by shopping. =x aiyah. the most important one is - PUJUK them to let me stay LONGERRRRRRRRRRRRRR =x

i just really need to have a break from everything momentarily.

NOTE TO SELF: PLEASE STARVE SAVE some MOOLAH for YOURSELF FOR THIS TRIP =x

went back home and ate mama's homemade mee rebus. like she knew ive been craving for mee rebus. *slurps*

on the other note. this brain started to think... and its going to rant. summarising it; will anyone ever be patient enough to keep me calm n steady n happy n (just ad things that are positive here)?

i asked kel whether he has an opinion out of befriending someone who you once given the throne of *special* after they do such evvvilll deeds to you. i respect those who are still friends if they ended it mutually and not a one sided decision. and well, i mean, i know my own point of view. i will never get any closer to them. he said, there aint no point of being friends. no benefits whatsoever.
demmit kel, are you trying to make me feel better or is that really ur POV?

should i even rant about it here? *sigh*

i wanted to log myself on into maple but somehow daddy knocked on my door n got me in the masterbedroom with my mom n brother to talk about my brothers engagement. i sat there sampai my eyes half closed already. i mean. i know its something important, but my brain is not registering it well enough. downgrade to pentium one then.

ran to the toilet n got out of the toilet to go into my room to continue what i intended to do...

& i was waiting for quite some time n decided to rest on bed. but, somehow, i got out of bed n sat back on the chair n i ended up sleeping sitting down. My butt hurts now... -.-

remind me to talk abt lab lunch last friday n lunch on monday dinner too =p

end of ze world

Fire the MISSILES! =x

This is what i hate so much if i just finished using the computer at the workstation (illegally msn-ing) and happy happy go back into the lab to continue with my work...

(Sorry lah, this part will be written in malay cos i wanna lepas geram (vent anger) edi!)

Aku bingit lah geram macam nak buang barang kat muka dia lah!
Baru tengah nak taruk sample into my agarose gel then aku nampak dia punya gel cair dalam aku punya buffer! abih, aku cakap bukan buffer aku punya salah, muka stone ego nak mampos cakap kat aku -

eh, buffer kau yang buat panas sebab tu aku nye gel cair.

Eh, mintak ampun sikit eh, kalau buffer aku yang buat hal kan, gel gel aku yang aku buat dan pakai entah berapa banyak gel aku buat dan pakai dalam buffer tu DAH cair every time aku run it since minggu lepas ok?! Dahlah buffer dia buat gel aku cair DUA kali, masih nak buat macam aku punya salah pulak. Bukan aku je, ada lagi satu orang punya gel pun cair ar... Abih aku tak pernah marah dia sekali pun! Seriously, aku BINGIT dengan perangai dia. Macam nak kena lempang. Eeeeeeeeeeee. GERAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMM.

Aku yang dah buat tu experiment ever since aku start attachment, dia ingat apa? Aku ni tak pandai ke? Piii dah... aku lagi pro dari dia in this part ok? Aku tau ar results aku in theory tak secanggih dia but puhleese... aku punya hands on lagi cantik arr. Aku tak mau boast tapi dah sampai geram kan dah terlepas! grrrrrrrrrrr.

baik baik aku cakap dengan dia, eh, tapi kau punya buffer la yang buat hal, kau pakai buffer kau untuk buat gel apa... Sanggup dia cakap, Tapi kau punya Buffer yang buat gel aku panas/cair.

... dia punya theory pun dah rosak la aku rasa... eeee bingit! nak explain dalam melayu pasal sains pun taklehhhh. EEE GERAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

*tendang store dia kat dalam -80 degrees punya freezer baru tau!* grrrrrrrrrrrrr
aku baru main snow kat dalam freezer tu =x

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Ok.. enough for now. I go n lepas the geramness + mintak simpati to someone later! grrr...

I wanna change my blogskin again, cannn?
Remind to self - Go buy some colour pencils la puh-leese!

I have a lot of things in my mind but i cant keep them in place in the shelf or something... its like floating in my brain space -.-