Rush~X

i was just wearing a dysfunctional set of clothes today T_T and even specs... something i wear thinking that i would never meet someone that i would die and piss in the pants for... but noooooo....
these are the days that when i will get the weirdest rush of blood because i felt that what i wore wasnt presentable <.<

i was going to school, taking the mrt and alighting at clementi to take the bus to school. and i was torn apart in choosing 154 or 184... 154 came earlier but there was too many people so i rushed to 184 only to meet...
someone that i will stare at and i would end up not knowing how to react...
and i end up looking away giving the coldest reaction ever...
yet my heart starts to race n i felt the adrenalin rush...
i start to not notice how i walk n i tend to trip...
and i wished i could get another sight of that someone...

yes... that rush of blood... its been there since i was 13... how can it be the same reaction till now? 6 years, for gods sake sal! what in the world...
yet - that feeling of regret n desire resides with me. no matter how minimal it can be... its still there.

i wonder which feelings make me feel good
the feeling of that adrenalin rush or...
the feeling where your heart just stops and time passes by slowly...

went home listening to songs... but one song really made me feel happy... Yui-Life... maybe i should put it up on my server someday =p

good god, wake up ur idea sal. YOU ARE GOING TO BE NINETEEN SOON!

Ackkkkkkkk! 500words project update to be done by today!