Indecisive.

I've been very stressed out lately nor have I been feeling at ease.

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2 interviews, 1 coming up.

A) The first passed by like a breeze, that it scares me totally. But I was sure I could do better at it.


Like what people say, you have to go 'experience' interviews before you are good at it.


B) But what if I say that, my nature hasn't been utterly confident with my own capabilities. I quiver and get scared over the notion of a challenge unlike old times?

The choice is was...
1. more leadership, longer working hours, more pay, less curricular teaching
2. more assisting, shorter working hours, less pay, more curricular teaching

Obviously, I didn't know if I want to be selfish and start saying I would be able to manage a leadership role or start slow. Totally, a confusing moment for me. I have to think it through again before the results of these 2 interview sets in.

Someone told me I should give myself a chance - and go on with challenges. Some say, whatever you like will do. Some think I'm pretty fickle-minded. Some say, I'm too flexible until I end up pretty rigid at deciding what I want. Do I really want the first choice? I am happy to get a full day work, and a better prospect. But will I be happy with the second... Because I do not have the confidence yet and I do not have the experience to teach these kids before giving myself an answer.

I'm CONFUSED. Confused at the decisions I have to make. Because right now, I do not know which are the priorities for the sake of passions.


So confused I feel like postponing the third interview to give myself some fresh air before going through the experience again. And I'm scared postponing would give me another setback like the other time...