This is a verbal suicide.

too lazy to see the screen. so im typing this without looking at the screen nor the keyboard.
expect some weird statements in this post or spelling errors if there's any.

*breathes*

it's way easy to make enemies than to make friends.
and easier to hurt friends, even if we know them well.


i feel like as if im under such scrutiny to be talked about when i thought im kept myself hidden well under the radar. much to my dislike, there's mouths, words, and tongues that co-exists with each other. when the apology is finally accepted it got it worse. may not be the antagonist itself but the surroundings dont make things any better than that before the apology is even made.


i'm feeling at the low momentarily, but i cant seem to feel down that much like how i used to be. probably i became too numb over the whole thing, or whatever mishaps, mindless words are hurled at me. the more longer i stand to just receive, the more my tolerance seems to keep reminding not to cease. but im sure itll backfire me.

if a no. in this life is of any importance, the only thing that can make a big difference is the amount of time i have in this world. namely, the experience of bullcrap you want it to be. honestly, it's getting crappier that i shouldnt even make an eye twitch over it.

later is a long day, and i wont be in Singapore. so, dont miss me for now, but i doubt anyone would ever say hmmm i would miss you. probably i already do.


when will that ever happen, i wonder.

i noe i wanna rant more, but the more i rant probably the more it dont make sense anymore. and yea i think it was already not making much sense just now. but then again the message is well there. be it the person understood it or not. that's up to you.

it seems like, im way way not happy this week, and nothing seems to make me feel any better. but i hope today would, by any chance. it's not wrong to hope right?


honestly, the hearts feeling like it went down for quite abit.