Im sorry...

sorry that i havent been blogging for the week. but i dont think this will be a good entry to make up for it.

somehow im just compelled to write and make an entry tonight.
i just cut my hair. ive been waiting for it for months. i should be happy...
but something just made me feel so... down.

i have been down since yesterday. the emotions that i felt was really immense; practically slapped me right in the face and made me cry until no tears nor a voice to accompany it. i couldnt think. i was down. so down until i was practically on the floor.
on my knees.

why? why?!

im just ruining my life. this way.
if only i can come out from underneath my table and knowing that everything around me is not out there to hurt me, id be feeling better. if only someone could be kind enough to sit beside me right now, id be thankful. i cant take this momentarily feeling of lost. solace under this table.

leave me alone if you can never be by my side. leave me unhurt if you know you will end up getting enough of me. dont teach me when you know that you wont end up happy.

im left tattered. and still unbelonged.

Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily (UK version)

True - Ryan Cabrera

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